||[Feb. 15th, 2008|11:21 am]
Secret Desires, Foreshadowed Destiny
I’m angry… Angry in a way I haven’t been in a long time. Seeing her with a man makes me see red, makes me want to paint the walls with blood. And for her to be with HIM!
Just thinking about him makes me loose control. I hate him, with every fiber of my being. For what he did to her, made her go through! She cried for him, she cried and cried and cried. It seems like its all I heard for years. I know that it wasn’t his fault, not really. But that new knowledge can’t burn away centuries of hatred. I only left because she asked me to, I only left because I know how to hurt him if I needed. She still loves him, I suspect she always will. And in other circumstances I would try to tolerate him more but he comes to her married. Married! He can give her nothing, nothing but more pain. He thinks that he deserves her, but he deserves nothing and he has no place to attempt to tell me what to do! I was the one who watched her, protected and guarded her! I was the one who pulled that bastard off of her. That stopped him from raping her more and shattering her. It was me! So he had better stay the fuck away from her!